Distancing Friends

Admit it. We all have at least one of those friends who are all buddy buddy with you when they need you and stranger like when they don't. 

I, for one, definitely have one of those. Maybe even two or three.

The three people who once used to be my very best friends in the whole world, now act like total strangers. Not even. Total strangers are closer to me then they are. 

My used to be best friend that was a girl, flat out told me she didn't want to be friends because I talk to my other friends too. We used to be able to talk about anything together, and now we're total strangers. Come to think of it, we haven't really talked since we were like 11 (I'm 15 almost 16 now). The last few years were just awkward silence filled conversations. And the thing is we've had best friend break ups before. But this time I'm done with always being second choice. It's happened when I was in 7th grade, again when she got a boyfriend this year, then again now. If someone is your friend, they would never ignore you because of a tough time or a boyfriend. 

My used to be best guy friends, would always hang out, carpool together, talk about anything, even crushes. They'd sleep over all the time and stuff. Now, we barely talk anymore. They've moved like twice, farther and farther away each time. They live like an hour away now. but distance shouldn't matter on how strong the friendship. It's sad though. They used to be my best friends, and now they're like total strangers. 

The thing is about friends is that they friend dump you, stop talking to you for a while, stuff like that, but when  you do it, and they start talking to you again, you feel bad. It's just that they only need you when they feel like like, and you feel bad about telling them no I don't want to be friends anymore. 

I remember once, when I was about 8 or 9, I friend dumped one of my best guy friends, when he was being a complete jerk, and he cried. So later on when his mom told my mom, I had to tell him I was just kidding, and that I didn't mean it. I just hate that feeling of making someone feel bad, even if they've done it to you. 

It's hard to dump friends, even if you don't consider them friends anymore. It's hard to let go of the people who once meant the most to you, but then hurt you. Distancing friends is hard, and don't get how people do it. 

Leave a comment on your thoughts, or experiences (:

-Ash